SURAT (after we met)

                  The last time i wrote a blog about surat it was full of emotion. The reflection of what i feel that time. I wrote it few months after our last meeting. The reason it was written late because i couldn't write outright what my feelings are.

                 This time i'm writing this because im full of emotions..HAPPY EMOTION..i feel inspired..This one is for you:

                 Sa Padangat kong MGA Aki,

                 

                 Tama, MGA aki,saimo ini ate, dae ko piglalauman na arog kaini kadali an panahon, the last time na nakaibanan ta ka, itong panahon na yaon ka pa lang sa tulak ni nanay mo..look at you now..a full grown cute baby na like kan gabos..Dakul inagihan na challenges ang saimong ina na kun saen dae nanggad ako maka interfere para alalayan asin suportahan siya. But in my heart i was blaming myself why i let it happen to your mother. I should have fight for her. She made the decision that change her life into a new course which teaches us some life's lesson. Maybe, I too should be blame about those events. Kun mas naging pusog lang and firm an mga decision ko kadto, our life would be different somehow. But it doesn't change my love for your mother.

                  After 2 years, nagkahilingan kita, dae mo pa man ako ma recognize kun siisay ako, i feel very happy, that during the first time you've seen me you never hesitate to look at me, i feel your acceptance..kun aram mo lang kun ano an pagmati ko kan panahon na ito, no word could express. In no time, you talk to me as if you've known me since your birth, ang kaugmahan ko dae masukol. Salamat sa pagkakataon. You are just simply irresistible. I just came from a week long convention, which is full of stress and short hours of sleep plus the long trip, gabos nawara kan mahiling ko ika. Dae ako halos makatubod na sa arog kaitong pagkakataon na mahiling ta ka. Ah! i just can't believe it. I had the feeling of fear while im on my way para makibahan kamu, what if you reject or ignore me?..iyo yan an takot ko sa daghan. But when you see me, its a different story..SALAMAT ate. You made my day complete with that smile and innocent looks in my eyes. Pasensiya dae lang talaga ako makareact accordingly that time. It would be awkward if i over reacted or be emotional. I just keep my heart not to jump out of my mouth. that is why i called that trip KAUGMAHAN TRIP..it was real happiness that i feel. LOVE YOU Ate!

                Para saimo bunso, i feel blessed when ate came, but then suddenly another cute baby came. OMG! this is outpouring of God's abundance. Akala ko si ate lang an papadangaton ko, now your here an additional gift. Sobrang blessed ako to have you both. Now you two and your mother are simply a gift to me by God. Kan pigkontak ako ni nanay mo last year, i was not expecting it. The first came to my mind is that, may problema na naman ini sigurado. But i was wrong.  I don't know what to feel that time. Is this real?.. another baby is coming. Blessings came in a very least expected time. I LOVE GOD.

                  When you were born, gusto ko kamu bisitahon sa hospital but time didn't allow me to do so. Dakulang kaugmahan an namamate ko sa panahon na maaraman ko na healthy ka OK si nanay. I am the first to know that your coming, we had an exchange of idea of your mother what best name should fits to you. Ah, as always, mothers knows best. Naghagad xa idea, pero si gusto niya man lang masusunod, atleast pig consider niya ako na magtao man idea. Mayo man ako negatibong kaisipan sa bagay na yan.

                    The first time we met, as expected dae mo pa man ako mabibisto ta pa 3 months old ka pa man lang. Seeing you with your ate growing in the caring hands of your mother is such a wonderful scene. Mayo pa kita happy moments together but  your mother gave me a chance na kargahon ka. Ah! ama na ama an pagmati ko. I have a confession, dae mo isabi ki nanay mo ha, secret ta ini, kan sunday na paduman na kita sa church while we are in that tricycle, ugmahon ako, we are a happy family to look at.  While we are on the church i attended your ate untiringly  while the service is going on, ugmahon ako. Sana mag abot an panahon na every sunday iribahan kita mag pa church as a family. Me and your nanay are looking forward to that. We hope that God and time favors us. For now, i'm savoring all the moments and opportunities given to me as a distant father.  Now your mother, gave me that full opportunity to be your father, i will never let it go. Sana for life na, hahahaha!!LOVE YOU Bunso!

                    2gang zhy, siyempre yaon ka man giraray, an super supporter ko..THANKS!..SALAMAT!..dae ka nawawaran surprises para sako..well appreciated.. i have nothing to say. Keep the faith. Can wait for the time na magtaram ka and magkwento na yes sa wakas things gone the way i want it to be. ipamaibi ta yan.. Savor the time of your freedom..enjoy life..live life with no pressure at all. Nauugma the way kun panu pighandle an mga challenges. Very optimistic and positive. Ok lang  mapuyat sa text kun may sense man kaulay..God Bless! LOVE YOU (ang favorite Koreanobela ni Zhy)..hahahahaha!

Love Lots, 

Ama and 2gang hanz,